☠ ROckerYu™

Hi:)

2010-09-13T14:34:00.002+08:00

I am not using this link anymore, i guess?! LOL!

I'm at www.rockeryu.onsugar.com

Joy's ba lu gu

He's back.

2010-07-22T21:08:00.001+08:00

Hello Earthlings!!! He's back to my side. I love him ttm. LOL!!! bye~

Vexed.

2010-05-29T20:51:00.002+08:00

Mood : missing you badly.

Feeling : vexed.

Action : MIA soon.

Song : -

Now: sick, busy, tired, busy and busy.

Your happiness is the most important asset u have, dont sacrifice it for anything, any fling or any bling.

2010-05-18T06:28:00.002+08:00

Alright, i can't get into onsugar, so i'm here to post all my breathe here, before i prepare to go to school. It's a rainy day and it's raining cats and dogs. I dun wan take umbrella:( LoL!!! Haixz, if only time could rewind to the starting of the year, i would ask him to fetch me to school everyday. Now lehs? also no point for me to reminisce here, haixz... ALso dunno he recover le ma? Where will not worry for him? Haixz... Ulcers on tongue and mouth. Pain~ lol!!

Yay!! I'm back:)

2010-05-17T11:57:00.002+08:00

Yay!! Hello peeps:) i know this blog abit want die, cannot die like that:) Here to post alright:) Hmm, I'm making things that sooner or later become one and only:) Hehe, My hair clip is one of it, XL did it with me. Hmm, So this week should be meetin babyboii, but ended up, he fell sick?! and blablabla. Busy days for me:) nope, i should say it'll be a busy month for me. June1-6 got ASPAC thing, after 1week, oversea trip. Den after oversea trip, go my dad's company to work... until school reopen. Haixz, I don't like:'(

Hello:)

2010-05-07T15:13:00.003+08:00

Alright, i've been using onsugar.com lately and i didn't use blogger. so now, i'm here blogging:)
It's been like a month without him. So what should i say? Friends around me having broken relationship as me, some having starting with their relationship and some having unstable relationship. But after all, still friends around me who have broken relationship is much more than those having relationship. Alright, i don't think you know what i'm saying. James should be post out to other place le ba? so i guess the fate for us to be together wasn't meant for us, but instead, the fate for us to be friends?! When you're not with me, i don't drink coke, but instead, i drink greentea, appletea and lemontea. WHen you're not with me, i don't eat lollipops because, they ain't as nice as it taste :'( Really really busy from the month of april till now, i'm still busy. Everything i do have it's on reason. I wanna occupy myself with lots of works so that i won't have stupid feelings. I swear, I didn't let any guys to walk into my heart after you left me. Because i seriously love you. I love you to the extend whereby, i didn't ruin ur new GBR, instead, i wished you lastlong with her. People said that i'm foolish and i shouldn't use my stupidity to wish you. I guess, this is call love. Because i love you, i dun wanna see u sad, i wished you lastlong with her.

2010-04-27T16:34:00.002+08:00

Lasting long with someone you love and lasting forever with someone you love is different. I wanna last forever with the person i love :( Alright, cartoon sibei cute, he wanted to sms me, but ended up he sms my old number. Den he ask me why i never reply him, duh~! funny!!! alright, in school discussing project. Bye~! raining cats and dogs right now.

haixz, seriously sad

2010-04-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

Do you still remember 4months ago, around 9pm, you asked me to be ur girl? Do you still remember, 4months ago, this date , you sang songs for me, asking me not to leave you? Today was supposed to be our 4th month anni, but now?! Haixz, do you know how i'm feeling right now?! Seriously, i felt that i'm having a serious LOVESICK. Everyday i go school, i kept on hearing your voice, everynight, i hug my *baobao* and just keep saying that i love you, baby. I went to many places that me and you went, even the mart around your house. After i got my result for personality cum character test, finally i know how dominant i was, how bad my attitude was. When the teacher read through my report, he said out loudly to the whole class:" I PITY YOUR BF. (why?) YOU ARE JUST TOO DOMINANT, I WONDER HOW YOUR BF SURVIVE WITH YOU. (huh?!) I WONDER HOW YOUR RELATIONSHIP LAST WHEN YOU ARE SUPER DOMINANT AND AT THE SAME TIME LOYAL. ( I love him to the max :( i won't betray my babyboii) YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM WAS QUITE A TOUGH ONE RIGHT? ( saying the truth, it was indeed tough for us, interest doesn't match at all. ) Your attitude isn't very good. (My attitude seriously sucks to the core. ) You either want it by your way, high way or ppl will tell you no way. ( yes, Babyboii told me NO WAY!)

2010-04-18T10:12:00.003+08:00

The girl on the left is Yanting, she's Xl's friend and she's a whore. Her pics attracted a lot of guys, yet the reality is duh~! her face foundation *thick, thick* ahhaaa!! *piak* her face then de powder come out.

The disheartened thing is that, knowing you love the person, but you can't have them. You talked on the phone with him, yet you can't say you love him. Keep on thinking of him, yet he want you to leave behind him. Hoping that you and him will be more closer yet the reality is far-flung. Only to go along with the reality and then you have the chance to change yet, after changing he's gone.

2010-04-17T20:04:00.002+08:00

Was quite excited to meet baby, because i did a book and those left over alphabets for him. Haixz, went to meet xueli and her friend, quite funny. Saw a lot of couples around the streets, i tried not to look at those couples, but i just can't stop missing you. Went to vivo, bugis and my family shop. Was playing with the swing with xueli and suddenly, baby called me. Haixz, heart-attack thought that he's got something to tell me, but nah~! He called wrong number, sadded, haixz he call le and i ans, den he call wrong:'( Called back to him, because i wanted to know if he had read the book i gave him, but he was busy and he said later then he read :'( haixz. I miss boiiboii very much, ilovehim:'(

when can i be like this?

2010-04-16T20:17:00.002+08:00

When den can me and my boiiboii be tgt again and be like this? Today in class, i sit at 1corner behind and all i felt was that i really love boiiboii and i really miss him. My mind was all him. Sleep in class coz no teacher. When i wake up, i thought i saw boiiboii. I wanted to call his name but then, i see wrong person, and how can he be in my school, my tears jiu come out le :'(

2010-04-16T18:55:00.002+08:00

Finally, i broke down..... Staring at your photo and just........
Knew how u love your ex. Knew how lovely you and them were. It was totally different from me and you, but one thing was that you was really sweet to me at that time. I'm really sorry. I can't stop thinking of you. I can't stop my tears from coming down, what should i do?! don't ask me to forget you, because i can't do so. Baby, i really miss you. I miss you. Baby, i missyou. I really miss you a lot. It's tearing my heart apart, i can't stop missing you, can't stop my tears from falling down. Can't forget abt you. I really can't... Call me a cry baby, i don't care, i just miss you so. so much that it became a love sick. Just hoping you to be back by my side when i changed into a better person. Hoping that your heart would be back to me again :'( I don't want any other guys, but you.

Even a short message make me fly to the moon,

2010-04-11T21:16:00.002+08:00

我应该觉得知足了吗？虽然没在一起了，但你还是像以前一样。对我那么的好，那么的一样温柔，一样的耐心。你还是关心我的对吧？！不然为什么你还叫我早点睡？人嘛，真奇怪。每次在一起就吵吵，闹闹。小事变大事就像-that halt became a prick, the prick became a sore the sore became a bruise and the bruise eventually became an ache 的意思。失去了，才懂得珍惜，就是每个人所做错的地方。在爱情里，is one in which two people encourage each other to reach their respective goals while sharing each other's hopes and dreams. A relationship should be a source of inspiration, invigoration and hope. 所以，我会努力争取我要的东西。你做错事没关系，人总是会得到谅解，得到原谅。所以，我还是不会放弃你的。kor, i still love him although he do things behind my back, if i really can't take it, i will tell you:) I think i'm fine now, after all, the boy that i love*james*is still my vitamin c, so i will recover real soon and be like hyper as before. like YOYOYOYO!!!!! duh~! these feel days never say good morning *psps~* :P

Because of attitude, i lost you.

2010-04-11T08:34:00.003+08:00

Everything has an end :) You opened the door, stepped in. You Filled my heart with lots of warm and showered me with love. And now, You opened the door and left me alone enjoying yourself with your fling. You wanted me to smile and never shed a tears, but i didn't. After all, there's still a kind of feelings for you. Yeap, you said that the possibility of you and your fling will be very less, probably even not together as you two are friends. Erm, i also straight away told you that there 0.01% for us to be together again, 99.9% to be separated. 99.9% for you to be with your fling and 0.01% for you to leave her. Yes, all i want you to do, is to be happy. As what i said in the board that i did for you :"even if things made you down, you still must smile and face it." You tried to make me laugh, you assured me that everything left behind will always be remained. I asked you if your next girl/ probably her asked you to throw the board, the flowers, the ring away or probably she just throw it away, what will you do?
Again, you assured me that this won't happen, and if the girl persist on throwing the things away, you will separate with her. Alright, treat me as i'm childish, i'll be happy to hear what you said, readers of my blog will be my witness. Anyway, I'm awake right now, i'll change my attitude. Now, i don't know why, i just don't wish to walk past the 7-11 at JP, i don't wish to go to NUH on my own now. There's a lot of memories there that will make me feel upset and i don't wish to be upset because it will make me think a lot:) Separation for us is the best:) and no matter how unhappy i am, i won't take revenge on you. I'm not like the rest of your ex-gfs. If i want you to be happy, there's no point for me to make you unhappy, this will be silly. Anyway, I won't want to have any Bf anymore:) After all, you're still a guy, so you have flings with you is still normal ba.

2010-04-09T23:11:00.002+08:00

nothing to post, am back from the class BBQ! Totally can't make it.

Ask ppl to be punctual, MUST reach at 4pm, yet the class rep 5plus den reach.
Winnd too srong, can't start fire.
Classmate no experience on lighter the fire starter.
It was raining heavily.
totally can't cook anything.
started o cook around 7plus...
food not yet cooked and so many ppl waiting to eat.
Tong dropped on the floor when a malay classmate was cooking, she picked up and used it to cook without washing.

So in the end, me, Joy, Peiqi and geraldine( peiqi's friend) went to Mac to eat=.=

In conclusion, next time if got OB outing, must bring extra clothings including under garments. Must either bring umbrella or raincoat. Must remember, eat before u go for every outing.

The difference between LOVE and LIKE

2010-04-03T15:00:00.002+08:00

Haixz, 慢慢培养这份感情吧。
At the start, i like you but slowly it become love. Now that i don't even know what happen to us, what can i even do? I don't even dare to call you right now. Hope, really hope this year de Birthday can celebrate with you. Hmm.. i think my tear can donate to those fire fighter. My tears really duh~! like free one sia. ANyway. at home really boring. Actually prepared to go out, but my cousin said taht she can't go out le, so stayed at home loh. Haixz, i'm kinda scared of you right now boy. Just saw u online, talked to you but u didn't reply me. Just wat the hell did i made u not talk to me? i'm feeling really low right now, i can't stop my tears from falling when i know you're awake yet u didn't reply me. This feeling suck and it's like thousands of arrows poking through the heart.

2010-03-31T20:39:00.005+08:00

Seriously, i just can't stop thinking... I'm really jealous right now. I know this is a stupid feeling and i shouldn't doubt you. But! I really feel that you are treating your friends as in those girls way too good??!! Should i say this or shouldn't i say this? At the start when you went in to C.D, you still got take initiative to contact me, but now? nope! Ya! i know your friend fall down, den you hold on to her, so that she won't fall. But do you even think how will the girl feel?

(being sarcastic of me ..)

Aww!!! you're my hero! you saved me from falling.
You're such a nice guy i'd ever known!
you saved me! I love you, seriously.
you saved me and in the end, you fell from the stairs and lost your wallet, i should be responsible for everything. Be mine...

Yup! i know you confirm won't think that the girl will feel this way as she is older than you. HELLO!!!! THIS IS A MATERIAL WORLD AND THIS IS A REAL WORLD! WAKE UP! 2types of couples being critisized :

Girls who are older than their BF (the guy somehow becomes 小白脸)
Guys older than their GF like 10yrs and above?? (老牛吃嫩草)

Now, the time is 8.51pm and you should be free now. Probably, some of your bunk mates are like chatting over the phone with their GF?? So what are you doing now? 4feelings that i will be having:

If i wait for your call now, you probably wouldn't call me.
If i call you and you answer the call, i will feel angry because you didn't take the initiative to call me.
If i call you and USER is busy, i will think that you are calling other girls??
If i call you and you never ans, i will feel that you are hiding from me??

Yesterday night i called you, chat with you. For the whole conversation, i tried to talk but you jst keep on saying the thinggs you wanted to say. But did you even let me say? when i want to say the things i want to say, it's already too late you know?? Nah~! how would you know right?! Because when i want to tell you that i'm sick, you already say *BYEBYE* and all i say during the conversation was (mm, orh, uh!, huh?) after you say *byebye*, i said WTF?!

2010-03-27T19:56:00.001+08:00

As usual, Saturday meet my BabyBoy. He is getting darker, BUT still not darker than me :X haha (I'm still the winner for having a dark skin) lolz!!! Morning had some arguements with my mummy, and then went batok, taake the "board" that i did for BabyBoy and guess what? had to meet him at Clementi, at first, i thought that he will be at the MRT station there wait for me, but ended up, i had to take the BIG board, take MRT to Clementi then walk all the way to Mac Donald's. Still never mind, His mum was beside him, Jitao paiseh sia! His daddy read the things that i wrote for BabyBoy and he says to his mummy " mummy arh! 为什么我没有这个板！我也要" walao! at that point i really felt like digging a hole and hide inside it. Watched show in his house, was funny and interesting. It's about the china vampire... a very old show la! anyway, Aiya! i am much creative than his ex?! haha! i ownself say de!!! because very few ppl will do the board for their love ones. If got time, next time i take pic of the board then i post :D bye~!

2010-03-26T17:40:00.006+08:00

2010-03-25T21:40:00.003+08:00

hi ppl, it's me again. Erm... i've learnt how to think for others. I've learnt how to put myself in other's shoe.

My Love, You are strong and you will do well in life. I love you deeply, Today, Tomorrow and let my ❤for you grow each day. Keep smiling and never give up even when things get you down. Don't let the past and unhappiness affect you for you are living in the present and future. Tonight, and the rest of the night, my angel will be with you. She'll tuck you in bed warmly and grant you the sweetest dream. She'll tell you how much i love you, my dear and will help me give you a good night kiss. Let my angel stay inside your heart and all you need to do is to shower her with all your love. My angel is willing to be your listener when you need somebody to listen to your unhappiness, she is also willing to give you her best care, concern and love. But if one day, you no longer want this angel to be with you, then could you please just kill it? So that my angel won't feel that sad afterall.

Are u superstitious?

2010-03-23T16:20:00.005+08:00

Being sort of the superstitious me, i somehow still believe that there are ghost in this world (maybe too superstitious) lol!!
REceived a call from my dad when James sent me home. My uncle (which is James's classmate- my cousin de daddy) fell down from 2m height!
He was helping my cousin to do the roof top for the container as there were holes on top. My uncle was smoking halfway and he threw the cig. at the tree, climbed up the ladder and he fell down. When he was found on the floor, the cig. was stucked in his mouth and he was unconscious.( This was eerie.) My family believed that the tree has something "dirty" living inside it and my uncle threw the cig. at the tree, when he climbed up the ladder, he broke the brunches of the tree and this was the punishment for him. AT the chinese calender, 刚好肖鼠相冲. So that day was his unlucky day too. But now, he's fine and he was discharged today. Went Sentosa with classmates ytd, erm.. saw something not suitable for my age at the beach, had "monkey" game with them( Jiajia, RUth, EUgene, sebastian)

our eyes look funny la! coz the sun was directly behind the camera. Had our dinner at habourfront de fastfood restaurant and JIajIa and Ruth took bus home, whereas Me, Limhui, Eugene and Sebast trained home. On my way home, saw somebody and i tot was kor, so i smsed him if he was there. But nah~! i see wrong ppl, he was at Orchard. After awhile, sebast smsed me to see if i reached home, yeap i reached home and after bathing, i was sound asleep but i keep waking up because my leg super pain. Ytd night, i called james and make fun of his HELPHELP again. lol! super funny. bye~ maybe later going JP, walkwalk, looklook, seesee, shopshop. Aww...

2010-03-23T16:11:00.003+08:00

LOL!!! My memory is getting worsen and worsen. I was actually smsing and i forget it. 30min later den i remember that i was smsing with friend. Oh ya!! That day sunday went to find him, i was using my lappy to watch movie and james was sleeping as he did not sleep for the whole saturday night. When he was sleeping,
he said" que up que up!!! faster go que up!"
Me: huh? que up? u sleeping or playing?
James: faster que up la!
Me: go where que up? for up que up?
James: sh...sh!!
Me: orh. (continue to watch movie again. )

after awhile, his phone rang, so i said
me: eh, ur phone got msg lehs! wan see anot?
James: HELPHELP!!!
me: (WTF! i tell u ur phone got msg, den u shout for help for wat sial?!) oi! oi!
James: keep quiet la!
me: ok, ok.(angry)

awhile, james wake up, he found that i was ignoring him and he realised that he threw temper at me, so he apologized lots of time.
LOL!!! haixz, i myself also will slp and talk, haha:X

2010-03-21T12:19:00.002+08:00

oh ya, james's parents are playing
: mummy:" 我要出去了！
daddy:" “去哪里？"
Mummy:"sleep la! haha"! lol!!

funny right? duh!!~ having a lousy phone with me. not used to it. couple phone with james. lol!!
he said he forget where he put the ring but! now, i just saw it on his hand. Ytd he lost his wallet at orchard! Know how this silly boy lost it?
(FEMALE FRIEND)(JAMES)(MALE FRIEND) standing deside one another.
This female friend of his, tripped inside the cinema, so james hold on to her so that she won't fall forward. And ended up, james fall.and his wallet dropped out.=.=" in the first place, he shouldn't even go out, because i never agree to let him go out.
anyway, kor, dun ton too much! later not good for ur health! tmr i'm going sentosa, and eugene and me dunno wan to bring wat, and he said taht he will be wearing swimming trunks. haha!! white chicken wearing swimming trunks, that's funneh~! bye~!

2010-03-20T15:51:00.002+08:00

Am at his house now and his parents are just few steps away coz we're at the living room now. And he is polishing his boots. Nth much to do. my phone was spoilt ytd night as i dropped it on the floor. Haixz. can't sms can't call. So i am feeling rather emo because i do not have phone until april 4 and my daddy say he dun wan buy new phone for me le:( he say that he wan buy those lousy phone. sadded. Bye readers/.

2010-03-18T17:35:00.005+08:00

Today is the most dulan day i ever had in my school life. Everybody was having attitude problems and started to feel that i do not want to contact with my ite friends after this 1year course. Was really fucked up.

好人真的是不容易当。没做错什么事却又被误会成是坏人。

Role play for EFC today. Was annoyed with all the ridiculousness. Didn't have a proper sleep ytd night, as i had headache. Turn here turn there, in the end still can't slp. Ended up mood wasn't good too. Sebast had his roleplay and in de end, " the 4beauties" stayed inside the room while the rest of us went out of the room as told. Just having a mindset that i am going to study in this school for few more months and out i go for other courses, no contact with my ite classmates.
Fucked up, really fucked up!

No sms from him as his phone low batt liao,

Sad Love Quotes

didn't sms with sabest. My form teacher is a pervert, really a pervert. He points the laser at girl and use the video camcorder to capture girls"..."
He even purposely make noise during the roleplay. WTF! I did my roleplay in one-shot and took my bag and home sweet home.

2010-03-18T07:48:00.002+08:00

not blogging tonight. BYE~ off to sch now. wish me luck for my ROLEPLAYS again

2010-03-17T21:39:00.007+08:00

Today
:

Had my SBM presentation, CS roleplay, EFC roleplay.
feeling sux! coz i was nervous. Sabestian smsed me, he was nervous too. lol-.-
I jumped here and there as i was too nervous, in de end, what the teacher commented on me was :"I not only correct ppl, i also praise ppl. The part that u presented was short and sweet. I like ur presentation. Ur group and sabest group scored the highest among the whole class" and i was like *aww... relief* -.-''
And GOOD NEWS is that, i did not fail my CS test.

but i think almost fail ba, maybe at the range of 25/50? duh~! bot bothering me. Next monday will be my an outing day with my New Classmates. In class, limhui, eugene, 2jia, ruth, they all keep doing the match making for sabest and me=.=""""! super duper lame. I said i have bf le, but they say that " have bf so wat, u all also haven't married yet, so sabest still have chance to be tgt with u." ME: (inside heart, nah- rubbish) dun anyhow say la! sabest de face like tomato liao.
In conclusion, i can say that my new classmates are still somehow childish. Yeap, i am a very very typical singaporean, so-called Kiasu. And i am countingdown for my birthday liao. haha:D
waiting for him to book-out this weekend.

should i ask him, to ask the girl who wants to be with him to come out for our next outing? Haixz, he have plenty of girls waiting for him and i feel that i'm the ugly duckling, being a burden for him. Should i feel happy or jealous? I'm struggling here with a complicated mindset now. If this girl is

pretty,
have a good figure,
treat him better than i do,
can communicate well with him,
not so petty and
love to have nightlife

den i think i will let go of James.I will wish him lastlong with this girl. But am i doing the correct choice or am i just too silly? Pls give me some comments. I really don't know what should i do. Sometimes, i really feel that i am a burden for him. Tired. Am having a feeling that 他只是在附言我而已。

Siyu says good night

2010-03-16T20:44:00.002+08:00

still remember when u ppl said to me? It's like drama, now u and him quarrel den later become couple? Then me and yyc tgt?!
Now it's happening to me and my classmate again=.=" And my class de eugene keep pushing the eurasian guy to me-.-
and now?! he sms me again. i end de sms with yup, i dunno. tmr go sch ask lor. den This sebest still can find topic and talk sia! funneh~!

2010-03-16T16:46:00.006+08:00

sch as usual, suppose to have my EFC roleplay but there's no time. Had OSA test today, rehearse for the presentation for tomorrow's SBM. And home sweet home from sch. Nothing much interesting for my life now.

我不知道我们的关系能维持多久，不能走一步看一步，也不能一直想着要这段关系长

久。我是思宇，不是你的前女友。我没能像你的前女友这样对你温柔，也没能让你开

心。对不起:( 我不是一个好gf. 你对我那么好，但我却对你那么的凶。你的华文程度随

然差，但没关系，我会慢慢教你。可是！教错不管我的事。哈哈... 我知道外面有很多

女孩子想和你再一起。如果有一天，当你变心的时候，记得告诉我。因为，我会祝福

你，然后在你的世界里消失。我这样会很自私吗？不！一点都不！你对我说过 “baby, if 1day we break up, we won't have chance to patch again. Because i last time kena my ex gf "back-stab me", i learnt a lot of things. i'm numbed in relationship. ” 你那天还告诉我:
James: eh baby, u know outside got girls want me to stead with them?
Me: idk, who?
James: one of them is my ex-classmate, one of them is my friend.
Me: (fedup, returned ring to him) who la!?
James: don't tell u "bleahx"
Me: (inside heart "WTF!! act cute only") orh. den don't tell lor. I know u outside girl many. DEN?!
James: Do you know why i chose u to be my GF?
Me: Why?
James: Pretty girl have a lot of suitors, so they won't cherish their BF. Ugly girls too ugly. But you! you are too kind-hearted. That time something wrong with my eyes and u are the one who is with me.
Me: orh( inside heart- ya la hor! u see me ugly, easy-going nia la hor?!)

2010-03-14T19:30:00.002+08:00

haha!! lollipop salesman worh!!

SATURDAY: meet james in de morning. Uh!!! Who can teach me play L4D -2?! :( Me and his life totally different sia, den we right down terms and conditions. In order to match my life and his life,
James will have to learn 20 chinese songs that i chose for him!!
I will need to learn L4D -2, 20songs i like before my birthday.
And me and him will go for =.="so called "exercise lor!!! like- rollerblading(later i rollerblade half way my ass open flower!!=.="), cycling(i too heavy later the tire punctured=.="), k box session( i dunno how to sing, den later 唱走音paiseh=.=" somemore he ask his fren go), Running (my stamina not good, later he run halfway, turn behind nia, i "pi tor kah" liao =.="). many excuses rite? haha..
Aiya, James go de is civil defence de. 好命兵la! Love his hair now sia!! like toothbrush like that! haha!!! i keep playing and joke about his hair:) den also went to spec shop with james and his parents coz james need to do spec so that he can see clearer. I made james angry and he dulan. He almost throw away de ring but lucky never. Duh~~! talked things clear, tortured him( tickle him until he beg for mercy! that's a funny scene) and home sweet home with a smile:) woohoo!!~ not long after i go home, he go buy the things that he need in de ns with his parents den he meet his frens to enjoy himself.

SUNDAY: didn't meet him, he need to book-in. Stayed at home and Slept for the whole day, very tired for these few days. Hmm, i really must exercise liao :P haha. Must eat heathily liao. and that's all for today loh. But he say next week maybe he cannot book out coz maybe there'll be ppl making a lot of mistakes. Anyway, never mind, still will wait for him nah~!

2010-03-11T16:22:00.002+08:00

Haixz, WTF! tomorrow i have to go for meeting for the asian pacific thing. duh~! Today saw zack at Dover ITE. His hair is still "curly" de la! Den after sch return meixin de book at library den walk home. On the way, saw Fabian and Zhihao with their cliques. I failed all my test. Can u believe it? aiya!! confirm believe wan la! I have to take the re-test for my test but i have no mood to study now:( Gonna sleep early for tonight. But James's will be calling me tonight. Haixz, last time TigerWoods de news, Now JAck Neo de news. Alamak! DOes this so-called happen to all guys?! i asked James something.

Me: EH, baby ah! u know the news about Jack Neo ma?! He got Mistress sia!! WTF! Reputation ruined! OMG! Can't imagine. Can't believe.

James: Aiya, this kind of thing is normal de la.

Me: WHere got normal sia! orh!!! U will become like this right!!?

James: (thinking)

Me: ok! let me ask u. What if 1 day when u become de civil defence ppl, den must go help right? den got 2 women. 1 is young and pretty de, 1 is old and fat. Which 1 will u choose to help?

James: Of coz i will choose de young lady la! young and pretty somemore lehs!

Me: den after u save de girl, u jiu will get her contact number and den go with her, and u will leave me right?!

James: Depends la!

Me: Bastard! DEPEND somemore! confirm will get out of track de liao lor!!

SOmeday, i'll just tell my classmatezs off! HE keep on match making me and de sabestian sia! den my class rep, keep on diao-ing me! waloa! like dun need money de! keep on staring like fuck!.

2010-03-10T22:47:00.003+08:00

yea!!! This friday James will be back home!!! surprise for me la! I afternoon ask him is it true that he must Stay at the camp for 2months den can go home. den he say true. WTH!!! I'm so happy now, coz he called me and tell me that He will be coming home this friday!!! Awwww!!! but i tmr have to report to school at 7.45am! Hell la! My form teacher is being biased. My class rep. de skirt is sososo short yet he doesn't catch her skirt for being short WTF!!??! This class rep. Is like .!@# hell la! think she got form teacher, den we scared her mehs? walao! today she attitude me!!! Nah! heck care la! Anyway, i dun feel like joining the A.S.P.A.C thing for the school! so hope form teacher doesn't let me join it. He is always shooting arrows to my cliques! That's being unfair! If the next time he catches any of my cliques's skirt for being short, I confirm shoot de class rep. out. confirm ask her go make her skirt until knee length first and tell de teacher to let us have a good example before "we" de students can be a good student la! This class rep. is like nah! see ppl good to bully den jiu attitude. I wonder how come she never attitude Lin Hui huh?! but Lin Hui, is nth de lor!!! siao char bor only. Go to ITE is like more stress for me lor! coz de courses is like quite new to me. Good night readers. Wish me sweet dreams. lol!!! coz recently i have been dreaming about somebody that i've forgotten.

2010-03-10T13:27:00.006+08:00

Happy birthday KOR!!! Having OSA lesson now. Anybody?! lol!!! help me think of some topic for my OSA project:( can't think of anything for the moment being. WTH! Argh! Jux miss him la Hope that he can faster come home!? lol!!! Will he be able to be back before my birthday? Aww!! I'm not sure :( lalalala........ i have lots and lots of time in de com lab now. But my brain just can't think of anything lo. Morning 5am plus he smsed me and said that he reached camp liao. And *poof* gone.

Now i dun even have his pic in my phone! WTF! Coz all de pics inside my greeny. Hmm...Hmm... So what should i do now? I promised him that i will learn how to play L4D duh! but also must wait for my cousin to come back from oversea first den i can ask him teach me. *bullshit* Oh ya, did something for James. Did i mentioned it? Uh, forget it. My class de Eugene keep Making chance for the cartoon and me. But i have boyfriend le! HE IS ON PURPOSE. LIKE wtf!

2010-03-09T19:57:00.003+08:00

went to westmall with meixin, and did something for james. Hehe:D his name is getting shorter and shorter :P lazy and no patience to do de gift for him. Erm, awhile after i do de thing for james, ("retard") came. and after that, went to pasar malam to find my ah ma. Anyway, James went to ns today. Asked ppl how many days den de ppl in ns will come out, but they say is 2months :( aww!!! weather is hot la! erm, classroom is duh!!! need to bring de fan go sch liao. tmr is bro(andy) birthday. weets x2!!! :D

2010-03-08T11:30:00.001+08:00

today will be my last day with him. And 2weeks later, will be my first day with him again. bye readers.

2010-03-07T21:14:00.002+08:00

Alibabaaba!!!!!! Jux to find out that i really should post some pics, but den nah! i haven't been taking photos la! phone de camera resolution not good also. oh ya!!! 10 march is bro's birthday! haha:) he's getting older by 1yrs old! wonder how was his Thailand trip. Hmm.. hmm.. tomorrow is my last day with james before he goes into NS(to be a really fit guy) lol! will cherish de times with him. Erm, my memory not good liao, awhile i jiu forget this forget that. argh! sian.. is like i talk until halfway den i forgot wat i wanna say. SBM presentation coming! tmr, OSA test. like fuck sia! time tight! bye readers.

2010-03-04T19:34:00.002+08:00

Argh! tomorrow having CS test. Erm, due to some things between me and him, my tears jux come out of my eyes when i was in imm. lol!! Hmm, Andy Soh, is inside de plane le ba? Hmm:D envy only :) lol!! haha.. he still say dun miss him =.=! Anyways, My class de cartoon is really getting funnier and funnier. We took lift together, and he shouted inside de lift like a cartoon!! Oh my! Erm... Hope my luck can get better ?! lol!!! 10march! i still remember! 10 march! hehe :) after that, jiu countdown for my birthday liao.. woohoo! yea!!! But that'll be in april. and James will be going to NS in 9march.

2010-03-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

His friend told him a fact. which is i'm ugly or wat so ever de la. lol.. I know i'm ugly:D but it's okay. haha! I believe in Karma, so whatever his friend said to him, will fall on his friend's girlfriend:D hehe, let's wait for the news when the guy's girlfriend's face is being disfigured;D Anyway, dun let me see until his fren! if not i confirm will shoot until his fren nth to say!

2010-03-03T17:01:00.001+08:00

oh yea!!! thanks to my classmate:) they helped me to break open de locker!! hehe. but these few days didn't talk on phone with him. Monday, he brought me to cycle, den at night he went to find his frens. tuesday, whole day neve msg each other. At night around 7-8plus den he wake up and text me. These few days, my inbox is flooded, but sad to say his name in my inbox is like 5 nia lor. All is my frens' sms. and my "sent msg" is like i sms him 2-3 times, den he reply me 1. WTF! Dun wan to bother anything le.coz my Customer service test is on friday. Next monday is my OSA test. ARGH! shit! Hope i won't fail so badly loh.

2010-03-02T17:14:00.000+08:00

2010-02-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

NIce song ;)

2010-02-25T18:56:00.002+08:00

Had my cross country at Japanese garden and Chinese garden. Tired la, lucky i wasn't the one running last coz there was a whole big group of girls walking behind me and cliques. Weather was hot! Ran and walked, and ran and walked. Was really exhausted la. These few days haven't been going for break with meixin. Sch as usual, test are coming. Hmm, hmm, haven't see until de sch bag i wan. Bro is going thailand!!! so good!!!!!!!make me envy only :x yohoo!!! can help him countdown for his birthday liao!! 10 of march!!! haiyo!!! my birthday still long arh! now countdown still early. hehe :D clique clique clique and jux cliques. Tmr's lesson is also another boring day lor. And the world's badest ass is emo mow and he dun like his life now :(!! how come?? i also dunno. haha :D

2010-02-23T21:21:00.004+08:00

Erm, i shall intro myself again. Perhaps, i didn't really intro myself well enough huh?!
I HATE LIARS!!! Pls get this clear. I don't like ppl to lie to me, Joke with me i still can accept, lie to me?! uh uh! sorry no cure. Ohya, i've really got to say this" If u don't know me, don't judge me. I've got attitude problems and this is what i'm trying to get over." Jux reflect about myself jux now, haixz, suppose to study for my CS, but ended up thinking and thinking, so here am i posting this. LOL! I know my post have been like wordy wordy and just words, but just persevere ba, i will upload some pics really soon. Just miss 4a3, '09. I can guaranty, now my new classmates never bully me, nobody's bullying me, but if i kena bully, i will not let the person off. HEHE *evil laughs* Aiyo!!! my class de Cartoon is really getting cuter and cuter liao!! OMG! This cartoon today made me laugh until stomach-ache! Funny guy!!! His face was red like a tomato!!! shall share about my new classmates next time. =D I love my current class too.

2010-02-23T17:30:00.002+08:00

Shall not brrod over my greeny. Anyway, today was me and him de date but i think he had forgotten la, didn't tell him what date is today la. Anyway, he say he is sick, nvm, if he is sick, ytd night he shouldn't even go out with his fiends la. I know only left few days for him before he goes into NS, but den, NS only ma, still can come home on sat and sun and meet friends wan wat. Stupid excuses. Argh! tmr having SBM(small business managment) meeting for my group straight away after sch jiu go lot1/yewtee for meeting. totally worn out for these few days, ytd also very early jiu sleep. But i dunno is i old le or what?! I everytime, 2am plus wake up den jiu can't sleep and when i want to sleep, it's already time for me to prepare and go for sch. Today, bus is crowded. Don't know that i'm having mock test for my EFC, so didn't study as my notes are with meixin. LOL!!! coz she had her EFC ytd. Mock test for Customer Service tmr, but lucky is open book test. Next week, Nextnext week will be the actual test hope i won't fail for all of my test. gonna edit photos for my SBM thing le, so won't post at onsugar. haha=D

greeny is lost :(

2010-02-22T19:20:00.001+08:00

My green phone is lost. And a lot of memories, don't care whether is good or bad memories, they are all gone. Yes, i know, 旧的不去新的不来，and can buy new phone, but is really power! I jux use the top up card lehs :( Haixz.... No choice had to use his phone, but the number is still mine. de behind is 5353 de. Haixz, bad luck to the core. I dropped it in de cab:( and i jux feel that a lot of unhappy things happened these few days:( I really don't know what to say, can only say i'm power to the max! even my precious phone also can lost, and 100 bottles of appletea won't make me happy. haixz...

2010-02-20T21:17:00.002+08:00

想你的感觉，我说不出来。这几天因为一些误会没有说清楚，我对你的感觉似乎淡化了许多。我不是小妹妹，不要对我说什么勾勾手，什么答应我。因为这并不代表什么。或许我们还不是很清楚对方，所以沟通方面出了问题，生活习惯也有点不一样。你的生活是黑夜到白天，但我是白天到黑夜。我起床时，刚好就是你入眠的时候，我睡觉时刚好就是你起床的时候。一次又一次的，你让我失望，我也让你但心了。我的脑很神经病的，每次都会胡思乱想。哈哈！！

2010-02-20T12:00:00.006+08:00

Oh ya!!! follow me at : www.rockeryu.onsugar.com

Heyhey!!! James's not in Singapore!! and He will be in the middle of nowhere, and I will be in Singapore, of coz la dhey!!! haha:) Jux now went to Jp for brunch with my dad and later at night going to my dad's boss's house. Hmm, nth to do lehs, don't feel like studying, shall watch some drama later after i finish posting this. hahaa=D

Alamak!! did i post here that he said he'll not let me disappoint again after he come back from his holiday? Hmm, i swear i won't let him off so easily if he make me disappointed after his holiday trip. You don't promise, but u try. You don't say and u never do. He should be enjoying, have fun to the max in de cruise ba. NVM, he also not dun wan to come back, is only, i can't know what he's doing there la, If he with other girls i also dunno ma rite? If i know he outside got girls den weets x2!!! Say good luck to him and give me a frying pan. Hmm!!!! 2more months to my birthday, lol!!! start to countdown liao! Next friday gonna go and buy skul bag and good news is i've found a lock at my home, and will share this lock with meixin. hahaa=D!!! Books damn heavy de! especially on wednesday, the teacher still haven't give us locker lehs, so slow de! and my phone bill for sms has " burst" liao! can't sms too much. bye~~~ have a nice day

2010-02-19T18:02:00.002+08:00

WTH!!! HE"S GOING ON CRUISE LATER?! JUX LATER! AFTERNOON HE TELL ME, HE GOING TO CRUISE BUT DUNNO WHEN, DEN NOW HE COME AND SAY HE LATER 7PM JIU GO FOR CRUISE AND IS 3DAYS. kuku!!! DEN STILL SAY 19 DAYS LEFT WITH ME, BEFORE HE GOES INTO NS, NOW AFTER HE GO FOR CRUISE, COME BACK ONLY GOT 15DAYS LEFT. OKOKOK! NVM! OH YA, 2MORROW GOING MY DAD'S BOSS HOUSE FOR REUNION.

2010-02-19T16:23:00.002+08:00

My 三姑婆passed away on wednesday night. Haixz, actually wanted to visit her on thursday but didn't even have the chance to see her last chance. That day wednesday i even went to IMM guardian to buy the aqua cushion for her haixz, no fate for her to use the cushion, so i passed it to my 外婆. :) Anyways, Hmm, bro arh bro!!! Thx for making me laugh sia! " bag for aunties to the super market" Funny la! today u sms me, telling me that u forget to do something important, i tot wat sial! den u say " I FORGOT TO BATHE YTD" i was laughing la!!!!! Ytd i really fucking dulan sia! not to mention about morning, CB, i really won't use the bag that he gave me. Jitao sian diao la~! He ask me if i can go sentosa with him tmr, but den jux now i tell him ok, den He say he going cruise with his family. Haixz, den other day ba, dun blame me, if i ask other ppl to go also. Everytime also disappointed, sian liao la!!! BYE~~

2010-02-17T21:16:00.001+08:00

Bad day for me:( i chase after the bus but the bus never stop for me to board!!! Stupid cartoon!!!! laugh at me!!! malumalumalu to the max! "Eh siyu, u run for nothing arh?" CB rite?! Den i went home bathe, den meet Xin and her fren. ALAMAK! i tongue tied! SINGTEL, i pronounced as STINGTEL! power la! den meet sit, drink at coffee shop, den went home change 1shorts and go IMM buy the aqua cushion for my 姑婆. And my relative is still at my ah ma house!!! Goodnight peeps :) Sweet dreams. Never mind, he never reply my msg, seems that his things are more *important*. If until tmr morning 7am he haven't reply my msg, forget it. I will go MIA and won't let him find until me because i'm angry to the max today not because of the bus thing i'm angry on him, but i waited for his msg for like a millenium years liao lor!!! Xin and Bro de msg are more than him la!!!

2010-02-13T19:55:00.005+08:00

HIhi!!!! long time no post. yoyoyoyO!!!! Erm, tmr is V. day plus CNY:D lol!!! friday supposed to meet him and somemore is i know him de anni. but den never meet him coz i went to find ALLY and XIN den Shihui also went to Ally's house. haha ;D oh ya, Thx banana :x Haiyo!!!! My family dun believe i go learn how to make flowers. haha PS!!! THX banana, lol. keep saying thx only. Aiya, Happy CNY and V.day :D BYE~~~

2010-02-06T20:27:00.002+08:00

HI ppl, jux finish bathing coz went to pasar malam. Alamak! my dad kuku sia! ask me to write down de list of things for CNY, den i write all de tidbits, drinks, sweet blablabla le, den now he say he lazy go down to sheng siong=.=!! Anyway, never mind coz tmr morning i go pasar malam den until 4pm, my dad will go pasar malam to fetch me from nursing home. Aiya! he is damn damn damn XIAO SHUN! and he planned to bring my ah ma home from nursing home on de first day of CNY! NEHNEH! she better dun first day of CNY die, confirm i wake her up! lol... Aiya, very long time never see until my ex-classmates le, kinda miss them :$ Now everywhere also red colour things haha:D so CNY mood but den no ppl buy de. YTD night i wake up, den i open my eyes only, den my mum standing infront of the bed, i shout la! my mum scold me siao char bor! i was like, WTF! middle of the night see ppl infront of the bed, confirm shout de ma, who knows if see until dirty things sia! Hmm, CNY faster come, faster come!!! But my father side de uncle is coming to my house. AIYA! *YOU'RE NOT WELCOME TO MY HOUSE!* paste on my forehead, let them see. haha!! jkjk

2010-02-05T20:12:00.003+08:00

hello!!!! I'm back again;D haha. CNY is coming soon!!! and Valentines Day falls on first day of CNY. And My 二姑丈is dead good news for me. MAYbe. lol!!! I know i'm wicked. Hmm, maybe this is de 报应for my 二姑姑 because she scolded me a lot of things loh, not gonna mention coz it's a long story;D Tuesday i've got my 5 stations and 2.4run, walao, de place is like ulu ulu de, and somemore i still scared that i run de last sia! after finish de run and 5station, jiu went home bathe eat den go skul 2hrs of Customer service. Lesson was boring and most of my classmates were tired too;D wed, went to yakult factory, tour around de factory and de ppl there ask us to open the yakult and drink. After finishing all our yakult den he start to talk. The bacteria inside de yakult is live de! billions of bacteria inside lor! cool!!And today is FRIDaY again, haha...

2010-02-01T20:53:00.002+08:00

Hello!!! And today is ...... MONDAY! lol... Mr SHawn Tan is not my lifeskill teacher because he's resigned and now my lifeskill teacher is... PP(Paul Phua). And had Recess with meixin. after skul, went to lot1 with james and headed to library coz he need to find Books that are related to business things and i went there to find knowledge loh. ALAMAK! Never think that he would sososo fast give me ring. kuku=.= shocked loh! And den, went pasta mania and HOME SWEET HOME!!! aiya! dun eat too much maggie!!!! will drop hair :D haha!!! jkjk.. Good night.

2010-01-31T12:56:00.001+08:00

2010-01-31T12:27:00.002+08:00

hihi!! I'm at my family de jurong shop and is blogging here now:) Hmm, Hmm.. nth to do now. facebook, facebook and facebook.

人之初，性本善。性相近，习相远。苟不教，性乃迁。教之道，贵以专。
means :
人刚生下来时，本质是善良、美好的，彼此的性情都很接近，没有多大的差别。在成长的过程中，由于各人所处的环境不同，导致彼此的性格有了较大的变化与差异。假如不给予幼童良好的教育，他们善良的本性就很容易受环境的影响而改变。教育幼童时最重要的是全心全意、专心一志。 haha...

2010-01-30T21:44:00.003+08:00

Ytd after sch, went home. Bathe and went to Pasar Malam and waited for my dad to fetch me home. Today morning went to pasar malam again as it's jux 3 bus stop away from my house:) Tired and 1 bad news is, 3 of my new classmate has been asked to transfer to other class as my class is full full full... 1 went to OG and Fiqah and Yong lian went to OC. Next tuesday is NApfa and 2.4 run and wednesday we'll be goig to Yakult factory. Fast isn't it? Today DR sim become Judge Andy, lol... His msg jux made me laugh... Hmm, hope this year can be a better year for all sis and bro:D Good Night.. sweet dreams..

2010-01-29T09:37:00.002+08:00

hello!!!! It's finally saturday. Hmm, ytd went to Mos Burger with meixin during break time. And after skul, i was dismissed early. Thought that he will come and find me, but asshole! going 3pm he say meet at yew tee. sian1/2 confirm, somemore, aiyo! his Mummy is so called "fierce" as in i feel that she is fierce la. Reach yew tee, His mummy call him and den help her take 2heavy bags of fish and dunno wat la. Heavy~~~ haha. His mummy de mood not good i think, and i was abit Not happy le, coz i thought we not going his house, jux go shoppping, walk walk. Ni nai nai de! If i know he not meeting me after skul, den i jiu go lavender with bro liao lor=.=
alamak ... Never mind forget it, den he sent me to Batok MRT den he head down to clementi. Siao Siao, who knows if his mum is thinking of what? maybe she say i teach his son bad things, i confirm dulan. arh! now is Lifeskill lesson, teacher not around and later OSA wa! i haven't finish doing de table table thing and i haven't cahnge the things in de Memo... bye. This skul is sososo old... Every thing spoil.

2010-01-27T14:11:00.002+08:00

Am having OSA lesson now. Just now went to imm popular to buy notebook for taking down notes. Actually is going recess with Meixin de, in de end my EFC teacher let us leave early by half an hour and den thought that won't use up much time, but ended up, waiting for this waiting for that with friends in IMM. den meixin called me, But i haven't found de pop coz jux reach IMM de toilet. Wanted to go back skul to find her after she called me, but she already angry le ba. She of coz is angry but i tell her after skul i wait for her to dismiss den walk to bus stop wait for her to take until her bus le den i take my bus, but den she say dun need. Haixz, now say wat also no use le. shall not say anymore, gonna type de memo thing le. Bye.

2010-01-25T19:51:00.001+08:00

have been listening to this song

2010-01-25T18:27:00.002+08:00

Today another 2 new students came to my class. 1 is yong lian another 1 i forgot her name. lol.. haha. Both female. Morning at home, nth to do so i prepared de newspaper, highlighted 5sentences and went to skul totally prepared for my english lesson. Haha!!! Sch was fine for me today but den i wanted to try taking bus173 and wtf! it was so soso far la! from skul bus stop go to batok den toh tuck den eng kong terrace(my cousin house there) den to timah, den to panjang, den to hillview den to batok east den to batok cc there den to hilltop restaurant there den to interchange. Sit inside de bus sit until i blur. Hahaha!!! swear i will wait for 106 no matter wat. lol!!! CLassmate and class rep got misunderstanding. 1 side malay ppl help( class rep). 1 side meixin class de girls help(classmates) in de end, talk talk talk talk talk, settled. Why misunderstood? because of 1 word (F***) hahah!!!!

2010-01-24T09:34:00.002+08:00

Nah, not turning off my phone. Ytd received a msg from jolene and it says: One day a man went to the beach for a sun tan. Using the newspaper to cover its body except the "birdy" leaving expose to the sun. Then a little girl came and ask, "uncle, what was that?". The man said, "it's a birdy, and please don't disturb me for my sun tanning thanks.." The little girl left and after awhile the man fell asleep... The man woke up and found himself at the hospital, his "birdy" was badly injured. The policeman came to question him, and the man said he only remember the little girl talked to him and left. The policeman then found the little girl and ask what she did at the beach. The little girl said : "I was playing with the "birdy" suddenly it shit on me. I got so angry, so i broke the birdy's neck, smashed its "eggs" and burned it's "bird nest"..... So funny la, den i was laughing... Hmm, I know that talking to me is quite boring la, and u're tired, going so far to work and den from so far go home, and de next day, go so far to work again. Yes, you're tired and i was the first person you called and talked to yet i was facebooking and listening to songs. But when i reply you, u already hanged the phone. I called u back but u rejected my call and ask me not to call again. Being the angry me, i turned off my phone. But after awhile, i turned it on, just to see u sent 2msg. and den after awhile, we talked and i told u that if there are more better girls outside then go find other better ones but you didn't want. ANd den u say, no matter what, no matter how angry u are, u won't balme me much. Because after all, i'm still ur love. Yes, i have no motives against u, I know u outside girls plenty. That why i say! go find better girl i'll be happy for u. I also tell u that i dun care if i'm happy or not. U happy i jiu happy le. And u said it was a new day for us because it's 12am. and blablabla.... and u wanted me to promise u something which is impossible which is not to ask u go find other girls. I told u i can't promise u because i want u to be happy with ur love ones and i dun think i treat u better than the rest. Maybe ur friends ur mei ur ex treated u better than how i treat u. I dun care, because... I'm not them:) I am siyu. I'm de one who can be funny with u, who can joke about, can listen to ur sorrows but dunno how to console u. I can be serious, but if i'm serious i'm not like the rest of the days. I jux smsed u, but u didn't reply me for the second time, are u busy or are u emo? Suan le, but i still will try to put in some efforts in this relationship.

2010-01-23T21:52:00.003+08:00

WHen no one is there for you, and you think no one cares.. when the whole world walks out on you, and you think you're alone, When the one you care about the most, could care less about you, when the one you gave your heart to, throws it in your face, when the person you trusted betrays you, when the person you share all your memories with, hurt you, WHen all you need is a friend to listen to you,When all you need is someone to catch your tears,When your heart beats so bad that you can't even breathe, when you just want to curl up and die, When you start to cry after hearing that sad song, When the tears just won't stop falling down, I will be there. So you see i will be there until the end. This is the promise i can make. If you ever need me, just give me a call and i'll be there for you, but i won't talk much, because i don't know how to console you.

Hi peeps, not turning on my phone le. Maybe some other times den i will on my phone. But can contact me in msn or facebook if i got the chance to use comp. Also can tag me here at my tagboard. OK? Sorry bro. I won't be smsing u morning and night msg these few days:) Good night for today and good morning for tomorrow. haa i'm fine... no worries.

Some heartfelt sentences: haha.. If i say these sentences confirm not me liao, so i type out.

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; Forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. Life's filled with possibilities that challenge us each day, to take a chance try something new. See things a different way and it's through these special moments that we learn to change and grow. To explore the special gifts of who we are and what we know for it's not until we try, that we find out what we can do. So don't wait until tomorrow to discover something new. Treasure the people around us for we do not know when will they be leaving us. Time doesn't wait if you think you have found the right one. Treasure the person, don't let the person get away. Don't let fear hold you back; give it a try else you might regret later. " No one other than ourselves know what can truly make us happy." How often we wish for another chance to make a fresh beginning. A chance to blot out our mistakes and change failure into winning. It does not take a special time to make a brand-new start. It only takes deep desire to try with all our heart. To live a little better to always be forgiving. To add a little sunshine, in a world for which we're living. Never give up in despair nor think you are through, for there's always a tomorrow, a chance to start anew:) Choices and wrong turns are made as the day goes and the sun fades. People are loved and the hearts are broken as the day goes and words are spoken. Smiles and frowns are shown on faces as the day goes and children play in open-spaces.Happiness and sadness are felt by all as the day goes and night falls. Tears of joy and tears of pain are shed as the day goes and all are in bad.

2010-01-23T13:15:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps!!! YoyoYo!!! now using my real bro de lappy. haha!!!! erm, skul was well still so-so la. Today is de special day for me and him. But because we are not able to celebrate today, we celebrated ytd. Went to pizzahut to have drumlets, baked rice and he had pasta. Eat until very full, den he siao wan! ask me wan go Kfc and Mac bo? I was like, "arh!!! no no no no thx... " haha!!! I think my face expression was very funny ba. lol^^ took pics with meixin when we're on de bus 106. She went to Hillgrove and i went back home to prepare to meet him. And sent him to work at Tampines den waited for my dad at causeway to fetch me home. Ytd wanted to go Marina there to find my cousin as he invited us to go for his b'day party but ended up, i'm too tired, asked my dad fetch me home and bathe le jiu sleep le. My ah ma's condition is weird la, coz she sometimes seems fine, sometimes her condition okok worhx! Weird lehs, medical report say until anytime must help her prepare for her "last time", den see her "live" she still ok lehs... qi guai! haha... today is saturday le, fast huh! den tomorrow is sunday and den monday again. bye readers, nth to say suddenly.. old liao forget wan to post wat. Take care sis and bro. Have a nice day peeps^^

2010-01-21T19:45:00.002+08:00

Today is Yc birthday. Best gift to him is probably to delete everything that can make me contact him. Even his photos deleted, number deleted, facebook i deleted him too:) Oh yea! tmr, james coming to skul to fetch me! Hope next thursday he also can fork out his time for me. But den tmr, he 4pm jiu must leave me for work le. Hmm, I still dunno wat to give him, erm! not giving him anything la! hahaa... My NAPFA test is on de 2feb, and 3rd feb i going to yakult factory. den after yakult factory, jiu go museum den bowling den more outings for my class. Even meixin de class also know OB is having a bbq haha!!!! OMG! HMM! Blisters have conquered all mt toes... lol. 10 toes all put plasters haha. Today PE lesson walked 1.2km den run 1.2km and was raining loh. First time ask Meixin to walk slower and first time suggest to take de lift because... I can't walk, haha!!!ter saw yongli and his frens too at westmall. den at my house downstairs saw Meixin's class de monkey. ARGH! i duno how to type de letter for OSA! shall go skul den type la, but i always forget to put 2sapcing for every fullstop. bye. good night readers take care.

2010-01-20T20:16:00.002+08:00

ah hem!!!! BLUE SKUL BLOUSE CAN MAKE MEIXIN SHOCK! HAHAH!!!! FATE LA, REALLY. HAHA!!! Miss 4a3, really miss but tot that my new class will be a more quiet and peaceful one, but ended up, more noisier, and tot that, i can get rid of ppl dancing and singing, ended up, more aishah. My class is like a market. Anyway, I'm going to bowling and yakult factory, but i forget when le, haha. After skul, had fastfood with meixin. Aiyo! so unhealthy. Hmm, had to type letter3,4 and 5 so didn't help james for his job. Actually can de! but when i call him, he never ans. I counted 1, 2, 3 and byebye " i'm not going to help u for ur job" quite angry coz, i can help u but i call u den u never ans. Anyway, i said that i won't sms u when u're having interview means i will not sms la. Shall wait for ur sms, if tonight until 11pm, u still haven't sms me. That means, i won't take the initiative to sms u. I know how u feel when things dun go the way u want it to be. You asked me if i were u in a messy situation how would i feel and i replied "frustrated, feeling that nobody know what i am thinking". Frankly speaking, I'd put myself into ur shoes and think how will i feel lor! but ur reply was that " i got u to understand me jiu can le:)" Actually i know how u place ur things, family and watever la! 1st- bike and car, 2nd- face complexion, 3rd-family, 4th- god brothers/sisters/ ur ex/friends, 5th- job and de very last one is me. You can say that what i say in here is wrong or whatever la, but now i only feel this way. I'm ok with the place i'm in ur heart coz i won't mind. ytd asked u if u like night or day life but u didn't ans me. Quite dulan today coz u was in a bad mood and i sms u that i thinking of 1 thing now. den u reply me "what thing?" i replied- YOU! thinking of YOU! but u only replied me "ok". EH! U think i dunno how u feel mehs? Of coz i know ur mood not good den i didn't sms u ma. But i still give u chance lehs, i call u but den u talk less than 2min den u say byebye. I wonder how's ur interview/ training? going on now. I know it's hard for u to go from TPY to yewtee, den to JE, den from JE to TPY and den to yew tee, but u also can't possibly ask me after skul go replace u at TPY den alone at there until ur training/ interview finish den u send me home. U tired i also tired lehs, i still have my hw to do tmr still must go skul and must prepare early. I'm not blaming u or what la, jux dulan abt my life now la, i hope u can understand wat i mean. Jux that recently, ur sms is getting lesser maybe this is good la, coz u can sleep more. Oh ya! i was late for lesson today morning. Traffic light green in colour for vehicles to move but my bus just stop and de vehicles infront also never move sia... tmr 2.4km for pe, i old le, can't run. Haha!!!! Will be waiting for this friday to come.

2010-01-20T06:25:00.002+08:00

Good morning readers. Muahaha, early in de morning wake up, my mum jiu nag at me, so noisy la! Looking forward to this coming friday, but i haven't decide what to give him lehs. Headache siol, somemore, i dunno how to wrap the gift lor, Jo, want help me?=D haha... Ytd my dad call me and ask me to attend my cousin's 20th birthday at dunno wat restaurant, but it clashed with the time that i'm meeting him, so i told my dad that i'm not attending cousin's b'day. These few days, james will be busy, but what should i say? Erm.. He's busy all the time la, the big busy man. James, pls dun blame me or feel what if i have time to spend with u, but i didn't tell u. I jux dun wan u to be so irresponsible, put down ur job, den spend time with me. Eh, u working lehs, if i'm de boss i confirm fire u arh! haha.. Good luck Doc Sim, heyhey, dun nervous la, jiayou! dun keep saying that u scared u fail again or wat, try ur best la. yesterday i use bro's phrase and now HEyhey, I'm using bro's phrase " U CAN'T RUN AWAY FROM STUDYING!" hahaha...... That time when i at camp, u tell me Haiti kena Earthquake, actually i dun believe lehs, coz, i never came across this word and i keep thinking that u're kidding me sia, den that day when i go skul, english lesson, my teacher tell us den i know is real de sia. lol=.= haha... later de lesson is confirm boring dao siao! 8am till 5pm lehs, and i still dunno wan choose wat cca, is it possible if i dun have a cca? Take care readers, have a nice day:)

2010-01-19T18:48:00.002+08:00

Hi readers, Today is tuesday!!! Went to hillgrove with meixin and meet jo and tri. haha, so high!!! long time no see, no talk. Must find 1day go pasta mania together!!! i miss the times when we're at the pasta mania and some1 (not going to mention name) pour a lot of cheese worh! haha, Acc jo to BPP for her lunch den went home sweet home. Asked him to tell me honestly if he like day-life more or Night-life more, but he never tell me. Haixz, Jux dun wan each other to hide anything and never say to each other, den long-term small problem will become a big problem! like last yea during Mr Ho's social studies lesson, He shout, sis shout i in middle like 1 idiot, dunno which way to go=.= ! Anyway, EFC?(english lesson) is just sososo boring. Morning Mr Tan asked us about the news for today and i dunno still scared that he will ask me abt today's news den i faster sms bro if he know any earthquake news, haha!!! but anyway, lucky that teacher didn't ask me go up and write sentences for today's news la. Hmm, hmm... Life is still ok for me for the present la, but only 1girl tot that she have a "kao shan" den she give me attitude and diao me. Quite fucked-up when she give me that kind of *impatient face. Hmm, after going ite, i sleep damn early lehs, omg! but still very tired at english lesson my eyes really cannot open sia, lol!!!

2010-01-18T20:06:00.004+08:00

"BONJOUR"... PEEPS!!!! really long never post le!!! Things are going smooth for me and slowly settling down with the new environment le:) My new classmates are really funny la. I dunno how to describe them, maybe can ask meixin about them, she'll tell u and ask abt the "special" girl in my class. Anyways, Hmm, Bro! I won't forget to give u a morning and night msg de :D My msg make ur day lehs!!! haha, so funny.. Anyway, thursday and friday went to singapore discovery centre to have school camp for office skill students. The food was terrible, but luckily, Mr Tan, form teacher bought burger king, mac donald's and pizza for us. =D saturday, went to JP find james as he was working at there and saw Rae and GaGandeep , so chatted awhile. Den, james acc me to have our lunch and den to arcade and to safra. and meet up with my aunt and went to ink- percent to buy a school back for my cousin and den waited for my cousin to choose her shoe, walao eh! wait until i impatient den went to meet james at arcade. went back to his working place awhile and den he acc me to take bus home, had our dinner at my house de food court and den home sweet home for sat. Sun, early in de morning went to nursing home wif my dad to bring my ah ma back to my house for 4 hours, den my aunt and uncle came too. Argh! forgot to say that wed, i almost fought with my 二姑姑 at the NUH. Coz, i was very dulan abt wat she said to me. My hand already reaching her face but my dad stopped me. so now, i never talk to her le. Yes! yesterday also went to starhub to get my personal usb internet. SO now, i dun need to share with my bro anymore!!! but my lappy now got problem!!! what happen i also dunno. suay sia! And bro had his steamboat with his frens yesterday when i was queue-ing for my internet thing. Muahahaa!!! Monday Blues for today, and after school, meet james at clementi mrt there de shopping centre and we went to sakae to have our dinner?! hahaha!!! MEIXIN!!!! "MC" oh ya! wednesday that time went to have dinner with meixin at westmall and saw some hillgrovians, This is de second time i go westmall and passby a same particular person (choke)

2010-01-12T19:47:00.003+08:00

COngrats to peilong(cousin) yea! ur hard work is worth it. L1R4 = 11, L1 R5 = 13. Haixz, can't meet you for this whole week! next week, u work, i study. also dunno when den can meet la! sat, sun morning, i wake up den u start to slp. Fri, Sat and Sun ur nightlife. You said that u're trying hard to change, to kick away ur nightlife, but are u changing? starting still will sms me in de midnight, now, every night i wake up, wat i saw was screen saver and time, date. any msg received also not sent by u de. Actually, i woke up early in de morning around 6. but i didn't sms u. until u smsed me morning msg den i replied u. I found out that now, i'm de one who is smsing u 2-3 sms den u reply 1 but was a late reply somemore. tes, i didn't blame u. i know you're working and is busy. I didn't say anything, i also keep quite. Sunday called u, because i smsed a lot of times but u didn't reply me. So not counted as talking over the phone. so 3 days, neve talk to u on the phone. And jux now still is i call u de worh! I know last time you're a heavy smoker, and i asked u to cut down on de amount. Now, u smoke 4sticks a day, maybe is a difficult task for u, but if u can't cut down de amount of cigs, den just continue to smoke. I'm not saying anything and i won't stop you for doing the things you want to do. Oh ya! ytd forget to blg abt i met a guy in NUH! He was from clementi campus and he took SS office. But after he graduated, he went to study nursing and now, he's got his license for nurse ( he showed me) next week, he'll be at NKF working.. Haha, funny guy. Anyway, i really miss 4a3! loves.. and de something like those (baibai) de ppl, said that my ah ma won't like through this CNY. That means, anytime, she will pass away. Hope that tonight she'll pass away and tomorrow, thursday and friday i dun need to go skul, but i know i'm cruel and this is impossible but still miss 4a3. Haixz.

2010-01-11T21:07:00.003+08:00

Today went skul and really THX to meixin for lending me her blouse. ASSHOLE! break time went to the stall to buy uniform, but was CLOSED. after school, went to buy again the person said CLOSED, den i tell her, if u dun sell me i really no uniform wear. WALAO! she she still say "WE're CLOSED" so angry sia! then, wallet drop into somewhere! My ah ma went for her check-up but ended up, admitted in the hospital again. This time round, not because of the glucose level, but her blood was infected by germs?! yea, i tink so. Very tired, coz have to call all my cousins to tell them what happen, why is she admitted to hospital, where can they visit her at, what transport hey can take, if they want to meet, can arrange time with me... Then, i really very very tired and angry, because my dad already promise me to go m1 shop and sign the internet of my own, means no sharing with my bro or anyone else. But in de end, he need to rush home to take passport, meet my uncle and to malaysia for some religious things la. The doc ask my dad if they want to continue to give my ah ma de antibiotic den my dad tell them to continue giving, dun give up on her life. blablabla..
Today is just not the day for me. And jux now, james told me that he's going to the cinema with his fren, a guy. Anyway, even if you go out with a girl and you all are just normal like friends, den go ahead, i won't stop u de. 自己没做错事情，不怕人家误会你。问心无愧，良心过得去就好。我不想胡乱猜测，有说谎，没有说谎你自己最清楚。 :) bye peeps, skul was still ok with me, slowly settling down. Bro, take care, ur skul's starting soon. Must jiayou for ur studies worhs!

2010-01-10T21:06:00.003+08:00

Friday was my first day to ITE. Can't really accept the fact that i'm in a new environment. I love 4a3. Haixz... and after skul, i went to causeway with meixin, and didn't tell james that i'm going. I was outside his working place and i told him that i was at batok area. Haha, wanted to give him a surprise but in de end, he came out from a staff room. ASSHOLE=.= no surprise for him la! so friday and saturday went to causeway to find him. And den, me, meixin and james went to Pasta mania. Hmm, today morning went to Jurong West CC den Went to Sunnyville home. Afternoon went to sakura buffet and went back to sunnyville again. ASK FOR ALL MY COUSINS DE PHONE NUMBER and i one by one call them! WTF!? den my aunt call and scold me " why you call my children? " I was like, "CB! I call my cousin to come and see ah ma cannot mehs?" I jux want to grant my ah ma de last wish and hope she can leave without regrets. Anyway, I was too harsh to put " AH MA IS YOURS, WANT SEE HER OR DUN WAN SEE IS UP TO YOU. I'M NOT FORCING YOU ALL(COUSINS) TO VISIT HER LA!" and yes, i cried, coz i see her suffering and suddenly didn't hate her at all. These few days, 眼神weird weird de. And she kept talking to the air. Some of the nurse said that they( old granny) can see something when their time is reaching. In the end, All my cousins reached the nursing home, but my oldest cousin is at England studying for DR so he wasn't there and his 2bro also not there. Anyways, i didn't give anybody there a smile coz all the while i was very "bu shuang" abt them. All more than 25 yrs old de, can think le and should be more mature than me, yet still must me, a 16 yr old stupid girl, not even in express stream telling them wat to do, where to visit their grandma. F*** rite? argh! So tired. Bye

2010-01-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

YES! today went to ITE for an interview and guess wat? the teacher asked me to report to skul tomorrow morning but wearing ex-skul U. Anyways, still quite happy la, james acc me to the skul and he intro his "mei" to me and yea, found meixin!!! haha, Can't find hair spray, but kor have. Wanted to lend from him, but he's at orchard and if tomorrow take from him, must 4am. So didn't manage to borrow from him. Last min, no choice also must buy! went to indian shop and bought Henna- black. Can't find gloves in my cousin house, so use hand. Now waiting for the hair dye to have effect and my hand got de dye de colour. Thought that he would acc me go skul and den to work, but jux now he called and say he's not going with me le:( never mind, i understand. Thanks for acc me to skul today. Tomorrow you not acc me i also never mind. It's ok, i know. I understand. Really i'm not angry. You're working from morning till night for tomorrow, i know that you're not free, i won't force you to go skul with me, Today u acc me to skul i already very 感激liao. haixz, at first tot hat i going skul myself, so i ask meixin if she wan go skul tgt, den we take 106 to skul, but he said that going with me, den i tell meixin meet at skul canteen le. Now, i asking meixin. Hehe. so we're taking 106 to skul together. But i think i'm weird coz, i'm de only one wearing hillgrove U. Argh!!! Somehow abit dissapointed to know that he's not acc me tmr, but it's ok. I'm fine with it. LALALALLALALALALALALALAA................... I"M GOING TO SKUL. SOSOSO HAPPY :)

2010-01-06T22:58:00.001+08:00

Have been thinking for days, if i should release him from FFS in facebook, and i've jux released him. Probably this is de best way. And i will try to earn more $$$ in FFS so that i an buy my sis.. haha.

2010-01-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

yo peeps, Hmm, today went in to the website to check if there''s still courses available for me, nah! too bad, no courses available as it's all full! so appeal again and must wait till 15jan. Hopefuuly, 15jan, i can get into the courses i chose and can start skul ASAP. Nth to do loh, quite miss 4a3. i haven't really open the chocolates. lol!!! will eat up all de chocolates soon. 我珍惜每一天。也比昨天更爱你。 Including sisters and bro.

2010-01-05T21:49:00.002+08:00

Argh! I remembered! I was quite dulan on sunday coz i smsed him and he didn't reply me, and this was what i always hated la! wait and wait and wait but he didn't reply me, so i smsed him, "what are you doing?! why never reply me? If you never reply me by 3.30pm, i'll go MIA." WTF, u know wat he did? when i was abt to switch off my phone he replied me nonono! dun MIA pls:( but den i still switch off my phone for a moment la. Anyway, Tomorrow i jiu can know whether what course i'm going, which intake will i go for. Hmm, i'm not tired today, i can't sleep! lol! Old le, mid night wake up, den jiu can't sleep. And yes, i will always remember the LRT "joke" hahaha!!!!!

2010-01-05T13:11:00.002+08:00

Yo, afternoon peeps, can't sleep ytd night, kept on tossing de whole night. But still manage to sleep la. Woke up, sms with him and meixin, and talked on de phone with xin for half an hour plus. Hmm, Really missed the times we had in Hillgrove yea?! Hmm, life is jux so boring, my dad dun allow me to go out le:( dumbass! he say i must guai den he will let me go out. My mum keep on 害我. So headache, i wanna get rid of my mum!!! I wan faster grow up, step into the society and work and got savings and den move out of the house ASAP! The life now is so meaningless la. Oh ya, that time i told my boy wat i feel le. As in i told him that, if his ex comes back to him and says that she wanna patch wif him, i will not hesitate and will just let go of him. I mean, 我不想当坏人，可能你会觉得，思宇为什么这样本？你现在又不是第三者你怕什么，但是我的心里不是这么想啊。我总觉得，如果his ex wanna patch den because of not wanting to hurt my feelings he dun wan patch, this will let me very 难受loh. Den he said he won't patch, he dun wan to patch with his ex. Haixz, if 1day, some1 tells him that they 反对 us to be together den, i will just disappear infront of him and will find ways to lost contact with him :) Hehe.. Anywya, bro thx for ur blessing. LOVES..

2010-01-04T22:43:00.003+08:00

Today was the skul reopen day for most of the students:) Happy to see my girls. We've been like together for so long, and suddenly, all go different ways and study different things, kinda She Bu de, but anyways, at least never lost touch with them. MY MORNING AND NIGHT MSGs IS BACK!!!!!!!!:) Bro you're such a caring person. Know wat? Morning when bro wake up/ at night when he sleep, he will sms me good night/ morning, sweet dreams and blablabla. Today was raining in de morning, bro smsed me and asked me to take an umbrella and wear jacket. Damn caring rite? Bro arh! u also must take care of urself lehs:) Sisters also go different ways le, but i'm still quite happy coz we never separate our hearts although we're going different ways . Argh! ASSHOLE! My ah ma de nursing home bill, 1 month $2600 plus including TCM, den now, new medicine- Insulin(jab) $900 over and still got glucena de milk( 1 can $3.00 plus) den de ah ma 1 day drink 5 cans so is around ?!?!?!. And no one is willing to share de bill with my dad and my xiao gugu and those medicine still cannot use medisave to pay=.= Cb rite?! I ownself calculated le, If plus hospital bills and nursing home, my dad and my xiao gugu each still have to pay around 2k plus a month. The rest of the aunties and uncle are not willing to pay for the bill. ASSHOLE SIA! good night ppl, sweet dreams.

2010-01-03T20:57:00.002+08:00

yo ppl, hhaaa, long time no post. Hmm, will try to upload some pics ba. Anyway, tomorrow is 4th jan, meeting my girls real soon, so happy!!!!! also after so many day not seeing him, will be meeting him soon. House cleaning, painting, renovating! 3days yet still not finished. Tiring day, whole body aches, and went to hospital for 2 whole days jux to company my ah ma at NUH and ytd went to Sunnyville Home. Actually, my ah ma stopped breathing at sunnyville but the nurses saved her life. lol!!!!! And i was shocked, coz there got cat suddenly. And i dun dare to sit down at the chair coz if i sit, den i can't run if the cat come near me. LOL! Tired, and frustrated. These few days, i'm like the meat in de sandwich. My dad and mum have been quarreling and asking me to do this do that, not bothered if i'm tired or not. They jux keep asking me to wash this thing, wash that things, go buy food, go buy water, go sweep floor, go take this , go take that. Den awhile, my dad ask me go help my mum, den i go my mum there, she ask me go help my dad =.=!
Den when i sit at the chair, my mum ask me go sweep floor, den haven't sweep finish, she ask me go wash the plates, haven't wash finish, she ask me go water plants. ASSHOLE! den i fed up i say den which wan do you wan me to do, guess wat?! she answered me all! So now, i'm tired and body aching, old le la. Tomorrow going assumption skul on de morning, den meet him, den go skul meet my girl. ARGH! sosososososo happy!!!!

2009-12-29T21:22:00.002+08:00

Less than a month, we went to movies, hospital, meet parents, den he helped me prepare for the ite registration fast isn't it? Haixz, jux hope this relationship with him can last last last last very long. Good news is, i'd registered for the course in ite. Haha!!! sososo happy. Today went to ite, ppl there wore like office office de, except me! I was wearing a big big spongebob tee and a shorts. MUahahaha!!!!! so paisei, but still very happy. Must wait till jan6 den can know which course i'm in. Hmm Hmm, decided that skul starts, i'll be staying at my jurong west de home. Renovation is still on at jurong west de home. Tomorrow i'll be going home to clean my room. The hump in my house is gone, but there's a "stairs" before entering the room=.=
Overall, i'm sososo xingfu.

2009-12-28T21:05:00.002+08:00

Thx to my naughty boy. Nah, i dun care if my naughty boy reads my blog or not. I tot that i really must wait for april intake le, but after seeing ur msg, i was sososo touched. Is like i suddenly wanna work hard if i have de chance to study. You know that I'm at NUH and u from yewtee?! train to dover to meet me. Loves, lol! i was like crying infront of my ahma, and de nurse tot i see my ahma de condition den i cry.. =.=! Eh baby thx yea? lol, keep saying thx to u. Tomorrow my dad bringing me to ite sian.. But at least got meet james today so at least still ok la. Hmm, he sing de song and ask me guess who sang the song. den being de lame him, he said that it was his daddy who sang the song!!!! so naughty rite? haha! James is sososo busy! busyman huh!? Jux came home from hospital. Sososo tired. Too bad, he can't help me massage. haha!!! good night readers, sweetdreams. Bye!

2009-12-28T11:03:00.002+08:00

Morning peeps!!! Bro, u're really really caring. Haha, my msn pm nth de la, But if anything, i will call u k? HmmHmm, Later gonna go hospital again, for the whole day. WTF! my dad ask me acc him, in de end, i go hospital later to acc my ah ma. =.=! Ytd night, 12am, he sms me, telling me that after he settled his things, he'll go home. But 6am, he sms me. Didn't reply him. Oh ya! i've planned the lines for myself to scold all my F***ing cousins if my ah ma die.hahaha!!!! University so wat? All useless de. sis, 4jan meeting rite? sms me worh! Anyway, bought a lot of tidbit to the hospital, if not confirm damn boring. Aiyo! my sms really exceed the limit le la. Last i when i with "ah tiong" my sms only 8hundred plus nia. Now, 2689msgs sent. Heartattack! hahhaa, shall blog when i'm free/ if i have a chance to blog again. Have a nice day readers.

2009-12-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

Bro really really cares abt me, he ask me to remember to have my lunch and dun starve myself. Thx bro, u too, dun starve urself lehs! haha.. agreed to meet james on tuesday, but in de end, my dad last min tell me he take 1 week leave and ask me acc him for the whole week, ASSHOLE! den i can't meet james le. Yeahs!!!! today is my last day working for goldheart, and i 5.30pm jiu go home le, coz i finished giving out all de flyers. My dad drove me to hospital to visit my ah ma. I'm sososo tired. haixz, 7plus i call james but he never ans. Den he call back but i was eating with parents so never talk on phone. Jux now called him, but he was busy so he never ans de phone. Now, i'm gonna sleep le, but he still haven't reply me. Haixz, forget it. I wanna go to slp. goodnight readers. Take care..

2009-12-26T21:30:00.002+08:00

today is really really a tiring day for me. Haixz, neck and shoulder so pain. James came to find me, and i acc him to eat. Muahaha, he gave me a present, but i really can't believe that he wrapped the present. lol, anyway, Thx my naughty boy coz u still help me massage.muahaha Aiyo, a lot of ppl preparing for skul reopen =.= only left me. How i wish i could study now, really regret that i didn't study hard enough. Now regret also no use le. Now 10. 09pm, dunno if james is still busy or not. Hmm, after work, went to hospital to visit my ah ma, she pull out the feeding pipe!!! and de nurses have to put in de feeding pipe again! and her hands and legs were being tied up. lol!!! quite scary. i'm sososo tired le, so i think i'm gonna sleep le. Goodnight readers. loves for my naughty ♥boy.

2009-12-26T08:45:00.008+08:00

How? I feel that i haven't been good to james, and james is de one who always entertain me. If 1day, his ex sms him and ask if they could patch, 1thing i will do to him is to tell to lastlong with his ex, and smile and just walk off. I won't feel sad/angry or wat. Really, because i think that he haven't really put down his ex loh. ASSHOLE! i actually dreamt that he went out with his ex and they took pics as in those really really close de pics and i was jealous?! how could that happen in my dream? funny rite? lol... Argh! quite disappointed with him but felt that i've dragged him down. He said that he will change his nightlife into daylife. But 2 am plus, 3 am plus, 4 am plus, yet he is not sleeping. I think he should just go back to his nightlife and he dun need to care if i like him to smoke or wat, just smoke ba, i dun mind. I mean yes, i will still help u to change ur life but it's really difficult la. 1thing for sure is that if u still continue with ur nightlife, den ur face will not recover so soon. I already tell u, drink more plain water, smoke less, sleep early, this will help to at least won't make ur face worsen ma. Haixz, now u're still in ur lalaland ba?! 25 dec, 4.27am, quite disappointed coz, u said u can't sleep and actually go pub with ur bro but club full le. and u was drinking and was abt to go home. today morning sms u, u say u can't slp. and is doing something bad in ur room. The word "something bad" really made me can't sleep for the rest of the hour. really keep thinking and thinking. Forget it then if u think i can't accept a strange boyfriend, i won't force u to say and all i can tell u is that u are not dragging me down baby.

Mood: disappointed, tired. I haven't been smiling from ytd :(

2009-12-26T08:08:00.008+08:00

21 dec, went to bugis filmgarde to watch Avatar. 22 dec, went to jp for shopping, and went to arcade with james. At night, last min asked my dad drive me to jp buy b'day cake, but he drove me to pioneer mall=.= . 24dec, went to The Cathay to watch Alvin 2. After that, went to have a walk, took a bus to boat quay and chat awhile. Went home. celebrate with family. 25 dec, morning, when i'm still in lalaland, Emergency phone call=.= to de hospital. whole day at hospital. All my cousins at paternal side, out of 10 grandchildren, only me, my bro and amanda went to the hospital. The rest of the cbk never go. Shall upload how, my ah ma look like and who are the CBK who wants the assets and not wanting to pay the hospital bills these 4yrs among my dad and my xiao gugu. Those CBK are my eldest uncle and wife, my first and second gugu. Didn't manage to take a pic of my secong aunt. The first one is my da gugu, she is quite rich, last time she look down on me and say that i'm nobody's child. But now, she dun even dare to scold me, but just keep smiling and me, so ytd, all along, i keep giving her a very very fake smile. The 2nd pic, my Ah bei and his wife. ASSHOLE! these 4yrs when my ah ma stroke, they didn't fork out a single cent, but they open their big mouth and tell other ppl that they are the ones who pay for the medical fees. F*** them! Ytd, the doc asked, who is de eldest son, and my uncle's wife immediately claim that my uncle was de eldest son. Yes, indeed he was de eldest son, but when de doc say, so this medical fee will be deducted form ur medisave rite? my uncles wife immediately point to my dad. I was like scolding, "bastard" infront of everybody. lol!!!! I try to look into my uncle and aunt's eye but they didn't dare to look into my eyes because they are cowards. They live in punggol?! (i dunno how to spell-.-) Readers, if u ever have a chance to see them, beat them up. They dun deserve to live on de earth!!!! Waste the fresh air only.muahahaa
ytd james was not in a good mood. humph quite angry ytd night. Really just treat the sms as i never send it to u before. U dun needa ask me not to angry. I'm easily angry de worh! Bro and sis i will remember wat u tell me. ASSHOLE! now everything sux to me. I'm not in a good mood now really, think until must go work jiu sian. I dun think he will have time to meet me. Haixz, forget it den. Take care readers.

2009-12-24T09:46:00.002+08:00

ytd night he sais 10 am meet me de and now de time already want 10am le, i sms him if he wake up but he didn't reply me.my eyes is sososo smll now, because ytd night i cried. Haixz, later gonna go back to jurong west de house and tomorrow will be de day where i will need to be very "dao" very "fierce" to my uncle. not blogging le ba. Earnest called and asked me if i can work for wednesady thursday friday, but i rejected le. Now i dunno wat to do dunno wat to blog, my mind is blank now.

2009-12-23T23:35:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO James, Zhiming and Karyin. Ytd night received his sms that his friends didn't buy any b'day cake for him. I was so stunned la, so went to buy him a birthday cake. when the bangawan solo at pioneer mall de was about to close,i Ask the person if they can sell me de cake, luckily de girl sell me la and thx to my dad coz he fetch me to buy cake for him. Today morning went to james house and his parents were at home. He left me alone in de living room and he went to bathe. While he was bathing, his mum came to sit beside me and she asked me a lot of question. This feeling really sux because 1st, i dun like to talk so much abt my family and she asked a lot of things abt my family. (how many ppl, wat is my parents working as, how much is my pocket money, wat job am i doing right now, how much is de pay, where do i live and many more) First time, got ppl keep on asking questions and i really dun wanna ans, and i almost cry:( I acc him to celebrate his b'day and i didn't tell him until jux now, i really cannot take it anymore, and i cried when he called me. Too many things i can't accept le. 1st, My parents want me to take a course which i dun like. 2nd, i really dun like to study, as u can see i Nlvl really never study. 3rd, i'm so stress! i dunno where should i stay when skul reopens. 4th, i missed the ite deadline. 5th, when he asked me 1 question i dun really know how to ans him, but accept it. 6th, i really cannot accept ppl to ask me abt my family de thingz because it's really really very very complicated, and i dun wan so many ppl to know. 7th, i dunno if this relationship will last or not. because i dun wan history to repeat again. 8th he is going to Ns soon, will his heart or my heart change?! 9th if i take de course that my parents choose for me, will i be happy throughout the whole course? 10th, if i dun study den wat can i do? And if i dun wan to work wat can i do? I'm so useless and stress now:( bro, thx for the things u say. I will take note of this de. And jux now talk on the phone with him. He let me listen to conversations between him and a thai lady jux today morning. AND the problem is i'm not jealous/ sad because he talks to this thai friend and she calls him baby. because she said "HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!" now the problem is, i'm thinking why de person i love all got so many 女人缘? haha

2009-12-21T21:05:00.002+08:00

went out with him for movie at iluma?! Shop awhile and de movie quite sian coz i dunno wat is de story abt, but luckily he explain and summarised the whole story again. lol!!!! den andy smsed me and ask if i reach home le ma. Haha! thx for ur concern. Hmm, my parents reached singapore jux now and de first call from my dad and we're quarreling again?! wth is going on? a little thing can make such a big trouble?! And my bro lost his phone. Yet he said that i took his phone and now he still can play with de psp. Wat's going on ???

2009-12-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

oh ya. Andy soh is my gan korh now. hahaha!!! so random.

2009-12-20T21:41:00.002+08:00

haixz, another tired day. Was late for work and smsed earnest to tell him so. Something happened, dun wanna mention. Hmm, i walked into GOLDHEART and i gave de ppl there a very very fierce look, somehow quite unwillingly to go in. The person who scolded me ytd didn't say anything today. James is working today too. 4 to 10 and he has lost his voice for shouting. Andy soh smsed me, asking me whether i wanna join them for steamboat, and i said i am working. After my work andy smsed me again. " wan come join us bo? we at bugis so sian. nth to see sia. come la, fabian and andy and me rock with you" den again, i say no. haha... lol!!!!!! so sian lehs, haixz. Today i throw temper at ppl, but i didn't mean it. Haixz. I won't throw temper again. REALLY SORRY =(

2009-12-20T10:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRICIA!!!Haiyo! ytd was a tiring day for me. Really bored and tired. The goldheart job really sux. Ppl inside de goldheart face blck like wtf! den walk out to buy food den smile smile at u, act 1friendly nia. Later gonna go goldheart again, i wonder did they scold the other girl? Or they're jux biased?! Didn't meet james ytd, talked on phone with him during 4am plus? and i was like half sleeping half awake. I ownself also dunno wat i talk about. Haha!!! Ytd mornig he went to see doc, and took medicine. He 2days never sleep le, so after his medicine, he slept from 1pm till 6plus- 7. Den his mummy dun let him go out. At night he called and we chat on the phone, half way his mum talk to him, den he say his mum jealous. So after awhile he called me again. Hmm, really tired. Today morning my ah ma woke me up and ask me go batok east de house to continue my sleep!? i was like huh?! why?! den she ask me take my things and we both went out together. So sian, later gonna work. Haixz. Not meeting him till his birthday and is also zhiming's birthday.

2009-12-18T22:58:00.002+08:00

Happy advance birthday to ♥tricia. today went to skul to take Nlvl result. Did really badly but i was mentally prepared. Thx for those peeps who prayed that i would do well for my exams. Meet James too and he was the first person i called when i got my results. I didn't cry or feel any Andy soh smsed me too. Ytd night msn talked and he asked if i'm free on the 25 dec. Den i say i not free. Today morning he ask me where am i? stunned, coz i'm not his somebody. He asked me if i could go 1head in de evening den i also say no. James smsed me somethings but i all replied ok, but i didn't mean i'm ok to continue into a deeper relationship with him because i think the relationship with him now is already very very very good le. I'm scared there'll be even more commitment if our relationship gets deeper. Dunno if he understand de sms i send coz i send "okokokokokok" for de msg. Hmm, he said that his dad say that i'm a small girl =( I'm a big girl lehs! haha.

2009-12-17T22:21:00.002+08:00

Went to NUH with james for his appointment. I was sososo stunned when i saw his msg in the morning. It was really touching, can't stop the tears. "dear today my surgery i am so worried.. I hope, really hoped nothing would happen to me so i could be with you. Not sure if today would be a turning back chance for me. But i will never forget the hug&kiss you gave me just now. I really appreciated wat you could and have gave me. Dear, if my right eyes can't see you anymore, you must find a good boyfriend ahead. i would really miss you so :'( But must remember, when i am not around, with you anymore, must takecare of yourself and live a happy life. Even we didn't know each other long , but my heart and mind just keep thinking of you. How i wished you were with me right now. But,i understand. Maybe heaven wants me to go blind just today. Even its that, i will never forget how kind you were to me dear. I wished i could never let you go.But if i have to, i am no choice. I hope you understand. Dear.. once again, I love you, and i really do. " I've never received such a msg from someone i love before. Heartfelt msg. Really, after reading this msg, i can't stop my tears le. After his appointment, his dad came to fetch us. I really dunno how to say the feelings after reading every msg that he sent to me. There's a lot more heartfelt msg that he sent me. He tell me his past and i think everyone has obstacles to go through. He asked me when is my birthday and he planned to held a party for me, but i said no. His birthday is coming soon. How ne? Hmm, he is an event planner, i tink he'll have good planning for his birthday. And he asked me if i could give him an ans on his birthday that day. But i'm not sure, Isn't the relationship now better? Haixz. He is such a playful boy!!! making his mum so worried. And make me tears when i see his msg. But before meeting him, i went to eddie's place to have a haircut. But he doesn't want to accept my money, instead he wants a hug.=.=" Asked how was my prom night. And know what? eddie hug until very tight!!!! haiyo! Anyway, j's hug is still de best nah!

2009-12-17T00:22:00.003+08:00

Can't understand why everytime i love someone, the guy will have so many so many girl de friends ne? Angry! jux now he say will online and talk to me de but must wait for half an hour to reach home. Now he call and say he can't use comp and reached home le. shall sms only. I think he still can't forget his ex. He ask if i got add him in friendster, den i say no. Nah, tomorrow he's going to NUH for laser on his right eye. Hope nth happens. now smsing and i'm showing him a very cold attitude. Even when he calls me, i only " mm, orh. " i didn't even say bye. ANd now, he apologized to me , but i still reply him very calmly, "very late le, u slp ba. if friday neve meet u den 23 dec meet." I can't understand why. The person i love is either 1)a lot of friends, mostly girls because of money/ wanna get famous. 2) Showering me with too much love and i'm so stress because, girls want him too.
Disappointed. I dun wan sms him le. If he wants to talk to me, he'll sms me. Ytd he was sick yet, he was so playful! went out and drink with his friends. 3bottles and went home and vomited. Morning i sms him twice to see if he was feeling better and wake up le ma, guess wat? He 3 plus den sms me that he jux wake up. Gonna be "cold" to him le. I ain't gonna give in to him. YO!!!!!! FRIDAY JIU CAN SEE ALL MY ♥GIRLS AND CLASSMATES AND FRIENDS LE. SO HAPPY.

2009-12-15T23:51:00.002+08:00

Yeap! it's 18dec 2.30 pm taking results. I think i really did badly for my Nlvl that time. Thx jolene for sms-ing me when to take the result!!! :) Can see my sisters and friends soon!!! Quarreled with my dad!!!! He is the one i respected most and yet made me so so so disappointed. I think i should really show him some temper These few days when i go back to jurong west de home liao. I must stand in front of him and pack all my aunt de clothes and stuffs and throw in out of my house! i mean it. i really cannot tolerate my dad le. He even said that he wan to cancel my number away and de internet too. It's ok duh! I can buy top up card my own. Jo smsed me around 4plus somemore is am de worhxz!!!! den i replied her. Think carefullyy about the things that she told me, aiyo!!! she says she is kpo, but to me, she is for my own good. SO when james smsed me, i read every single word carefully even when i finish bathing in de morning, he sms me if i wake up le den sms him. but there's one msg that he says he will give all his love to me. And i told him, "nah, it's too fast. Pls let me think carefully. jux know for like less than 1week lehs. can you prove it to me too?" and james told me that he doesn't want to drag me down bcoz he has health problem. But i really don't know which part of my msg made him tears when he's on the train, going for work. He was feeling unwell eventually and he vomit blood, quite unreal to know this so i called him. He didn't bluff me, his voice was really tired and yet he bought things for me to eat after he came back to yewtee. Funny thing is that his colleagues wanted to call for an ambulance!!!! coz he almost faint. ANd before he tell me that he is sick, he suddenly sms me not to leave him, blablabla... Hmm, he's meeting me for half an hour outside skul when i get my Nlvl result because he is helping me to find some courses that is suitable for me. Such a nice guy. He asked me if i 爱上他(love) den i say i like him, but not love. den i tell him, if he wan me to treat him as good fren, i can be his good fren, because he doesn't have much good frens. If he wants me to treat him as bro, i can treat him as my bro. BUt know wat he ans? I WANT TO BE YOUR BOY. i was like stunned......... haixz. how should i say ne? He is jux 18 yet he is more mature thinking than ah hem!!! because he doesn't want to take money from his parents. He earn the money and pay for all de expenses in family? something like that. Ah hem, won't like that wan loh, and doesn't care for other ppl de feelings de!!!! James at least still will care, but i really really realised that wat james is doing now, is wat i did when i was with ah hem! and now, i don't really concern abt james, i am like wat ah hem did to me. How? how? how? everything is too fast le. But i know, Both J(s) are for my own good.

2009-12-14T23:43:00.002+08:00

aiyo!!!!! class gathering so sudden!!!! alamak! haixz, gonna bang on de wall very soon. already promise to accompany ♥ for his birthday yet class gathering is like on de same day. And my dad is coming back to singapore tomorrow and i lost my internet cable. I'm in deep shit. how? anyone tell me wat to do? aiyo, maybe i going maybe i'm not. so how? i cannot 重色情友 correct word? haha. Both events are important to me. Hmm, shall not disappoint ♥. He is really a gentleman, and he really really is far mre better than ah hem!!!!!!!! I was so touched when ♥ sent me some msg. He even went to pasar malam to find me. Aiyo!!!!! and he went clubbing ytd nite and was kena touched by some of the girls during clubbing. eventually ♥ pushed away the girl and the girls asked money from him, and he paid them and things was settled. Why ne? those girl was like quite pretty yet, doing such things to betray their body. Hmm, aiyo, ♥said alot of things in de msg but i wasn't really believing wat he said. He was like the me in de past and all i do was to send back a =) smile
within 48 hours and i know a lot of things about him le. Even if i sit down quietly, he will also try to entertain me. When he is busy, he will even sms me and say sorry that he can't entertain me. He even do household chores for his mum. Where on earth can i find this kind of guy? ♥ uses words that i called ah hem in de past and he is really a nice guy. This is all i could describe him. He is so caring and he even asked me when is my nlvl results out? And he even tell me that he wants to take care of me, shower me with love, dote and care. Really, he is really a nice guy better than ah hem!!! alot more. But should i put in more effort to know more abt him? Haixz.....

2009-12-13T23:30:00.001+08:00

History won't repeat so easily rite? Haixz, today was reallt tired and bored when working, Liyar came to find me because i ask her if she can help me buy water. THx yea? but i forgot to pass u back de money. Next i sitted on the stairs and called jo to chat. After that, james came and look for me. Same pattern, he haven't finish talking, i hung up his phone, didn't even say bye bye. Muahahaha. Today's will you, frightened me. really, lucky he is willing to explain in details. And waited for him to eat and he sent me home. Aiya, will have no harvest. Muahahahaha!!! This time round, jo must believe me, really. Hmm, abit tou lan today, coz weather was quite warm. Hmm, James de mouth can't stop talking. found out that his mouth same as hehe, and ruan jing tian de. Top de lip is thin de and de below de lip is thick de. lol!!!!!! ! !! Oh ya! some funny things happen when his mum called him, i was laughing because his mum ask him to buy "things" haahahahaha. And he's going to yewtee to buy! lol. tomorrow i'm at yewtee la!!!! nah! also have to meet earnest to past him forms. So called another ear to lend me? but before i borrow james de ears my ears dropped off le. Haixz, 23dec his birthday, whole day kena book sia!!!!! also dunno wat to do.how ne? somemore jux both of us going to vivo for movie and eat and walk walk, and sing k. Hmm, i think so ba. Haixz, he's jux a passerby who needs someone to care and concern about him and lend him ur ears?! something like wanting u to ke lian him. haixz, blister blister and more blister. heyhey!!!! trying to slim down. lol!!!!! hahahaa.... but maybe will see me getting more fatter. bye peeps, good night, sweet dreams.

2009-12-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

2009-12-12T22:57:00.002+08:00

hi peeps, Hmm, today is my most happy, paisei, tired and sad de day ba? first paisei, is i wore something that i usually dun wear, that's long pants and office blouse. second, happy, coz can see until frens and know new frens ah hem "james" hahahahahaa, he's funnie?! and 1 big problem is that his sms language was same as " ah hem!" and i saw wrongly i tot it was jolene who sms me, but it was james. lol!!! yeap! thx to him, coz he sacrifice his time when he is free and his dinner time to acc me talk and blablabla... so in de end, i pei him go eat, but he eat i see hahahaha, afterthat, he acc me to prima deli and he's off to work. Thx yea? i am also very happy to have know u. Hmm, I'm confirm not meant to be urs! and dun tink too much abt ur ex, time will heal th ethings that she did to you. Hmm, saw sijin and liyar and pearlyn too. Tired because i've been standing for the whole day and leg very pain loh, blisters all over. and yeap, tomorrow will be james de last day and he'll be at ppl's park, so i think nobody acc me to talk le. Hmm, really, his pattern really look like him. talked alot and after ordering cake, i went to find jo. hahaha.... and jokes and jokes and byebye~ sorry i can't acc u till liyar reach. ps. :) jo, should i change the name so that i won't get confuse? hahaha